Change

I woke up today with a feeling; a feeling of change. Why is today so different? That's a question I'm still trying to answer myself, but what makes this feeling so significant is what I can explain. A little warning though before you read any further, as a blogger I feel like it's my duty to warn you that this isn't my best post, it's not even close. I apologize, dear readers for that, and for the fact that I haven't been blogging since god knows when. However, I hope this will be considered a start in making up for lost time. Also, I believe that utter honesty and plain frankness is the best approach when it comes to expressing one's feelings, so here it goes...
As I was saying, I woke up today with a feeling of change. This feeling comes out, unfortunately, because of so many built up and piled up emotions. Emotions that sadly took over, and finally left me with not so much of a want but a desperate need for change. I still can't wrap my head around the reason why it all happened, but I do know when it all began and how it slowly developed to this. I'm sure you're all familiar with the phrase "Never put all your eggs in one basket"; basically never invest everything you have in one "thing". I know what you are all thinking: who is stupid enough to do that? Guess what? I was stupid enough to do that. Upside? I'm finally owning up to my mistake and admitting it. They say admitting to the problem is the hardest part, and the rest will come easy. I hope for my sake whoever "They" are were right, because accepting the problem really took its toll on me. Now, back to my bad "investment", and in the fear of stating the obvious we all know that wasn't in stocks or any money worthy anything, it's so much worse than that. I was stupid enough to invest my feelings, trust, and believe it or not my heart. (I just have to say, this sentence was extremely hard to type). If you know me, you would know that I'm the kind of person that tries, but miserably fails, to not drown myself in my own sorrows. Most of the time I'm put-together, and well-composed, but there are times when I let my emotions take the best of me and I will not apologize for that. This is one of those times. I'm sure you can relate to this, one way or another.
So, today I decided that I will not let this "feelings" take over and instead I'm seeking change. My problem is that I always waited and expected others to do the changing, I never really thought about how ridiculous that is. How can I, as an independent individual, expect another independent individual to just change? That really doesn't make any sense. I know now that change comes from within, and if I did want people to change I might as well just get a new bunch of them instead. Sometimes you have to let people be whoever they want to be and let them make their own mistakes. I used to believe in second, third, and even fourth chances, but now I believe in "Forgive and Forget"; Forgive them for what they did, and forget they existed. My loss, or as I'd like to call it my "bad investment" caused somewhat of trauma to me, but it was a major eye opener to me. So, dear readers my last advice to you is replace the old with new, fix what you can fix, let go of the past, and always remember that everything happens for a reason.