A week or so ago, I approached FJ Bliss, the main writer on this blog, and asked her for a name change. I had reasoned that the name Sexual Napalm would be a better fit than the name 42. I had failed to consider that the name 42 clearly defines who we are. What we are all about. In my haste to make this blog awesome, I had failed to realize that it already was.
I stopped living by the core values that I was taught to believe in. I knew my actions were wrong, but I convinced myself that normal rules didn't apply. I never thought about who I was hurting. Instead, I thought only about myself. I was wrong. I was foolish. I don't get to play by different rules. The same boundaries that apply to everyone apply to me. I brought this shame on myself.
Many allegations have been made about the escalation of these events. Many have said that FJ Bliss and I have come to blows. That is not true. I have never hit FJ Bliss. She, however, has. A bunch of times. I have scars to prove it. However, that is neither here nor there.
I once heard, and I believe it's true, it's not what you achieve in life that matters; it's what you overcome. Achievements on the blog are only part of setting an example. Character and decency are what really count.
Its time for me to stop pointing fingers and learn that sometimes, I am the problem. No matter how hard I try, Sexual Napalm will not be the name of this blog. This blog is too decent for that. It has a loyal following, and changing the name would alienate that core constituency. It is because of them that this blog is what it is today. My second apology goes to them.
I hope everyone here forgives me.